Avicii in my Heart

I don’t know what to write anymore as I gasp in between sobs. I picture myself sitting at Ocean Prime Restaurant with my girlfriends a few birthdays ago, telling them I wished for Avicii’s “I Could Be The One,” to be played at my funeral and requesting, if I died first, would they spread my ashes a various music festivals?

It’s never pleasant to think about death or the loss of someone who made a positive impact on our lives.

I just don’t know what else to think about

“Levels” was major in my life. Especially when Skrillex made that remix.

That one defined the reason why I began to devote my time to electronic dance culture. My heart skips a beat just thinking about my placement during the plays of that song. Initial memory snaps to Holy Ship. Avicii was never on the boat but we all felt his presence when his music was played.

It’s so weird to think that one person was behind a track that moves me to smiles and brings me to tears.

That track was made YEARS ago. And before that, I can’t remember anything in particular that made me feel so passionate about my life’s decisions. Yea this is a deep moment and I’m not sure if I’m identifying with you reading this; but, I don’t know what else to say.

I’m sad. I feel somewhat lonely. Lonely because the connection was so personal. Thinking that I will never have another production from Avicii comparable to levels (other than “I Can Be The One”- my funeral song) makes me empty inside.

Sending you hugs and hugs and hugs, my friend.

Miss you. Miss your mind. Miss your music.

~A. Re